R2P2 Highest Loading Weight 165.3
I will never figure this weight loss thing out. I ate about 1200 calories yesterday, only did that 20 minute video and went for a short walk, and then I gained 1.3lbs today (1.1 after second bathroom break). And I wasnt eating crap, either: venison chili (homeade), brussels with olive oil, some nuts, a little bread, lots of kohlrabi and red peppers. WTH? So, even though I know it shouldnt concern me, Im upset. I cant seem to lose weight without doing the protocol. And that annoys me. Our bodies are amazing, mine should be able to adapt to other ways of losing weight too. One thing I havent told you though, TOM hasnt made an appearance since P2. He was expected over a month ago, and no show. I dont have any symptoms of PMS or pregnancy, and if you remember, Hubby had Vday back on Mothers Day weekend. So Im not really worried about having another little ball of joy (especially since then Id at least get my boobs back), Im more worried about what stress my body is still feeling that it doesnt want to release its juices (too graphic? sorry!). And that when it decides to, it may be a most inopportune time. And my belly is definitely not flat right now. Maybe Im starting to build a little muscle and its pushing all the fat out? How attractive. TOM would be welcome right now, so I can blame this whole thing on him... I really dont want to do another round in the summer-there is too much going on with parties and temptations, and then also training for my tris. So I will need to wait this out and try to be happy exactly where I am, as I keep reminding myself and reading books about and all that. The next time I get a wish, instead of world peace, maybe I'll wish for self love and acceptance without consideration or deliberation. I think for most of us, that would be harder to achieve than world peace...what do you think? |
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