Certainty and Visualization

Just watched this amazing Tony Robbins video. He was interviewing Frank Kern and John Reese about how to reach goals and what holds most people back. And I started to link my injuries and lack of motivation and all this other bs that is holding me back from doing more events, to losing weight, and more, to FEAR. Fear that I did not acknowledge I am holding on to before this moment. Fear of what you ask?...well, the basics: Failure, injury, flat tires, cars hitting me, big hills, SUCCESS, my own magnifigence. Pretty powerful stuff.

But its ok to have the fear. Acknowledge it. Bask in it. Know that it makes us alive. And that it doe not need to hold you back. You can instead visualize the results you want and not the steps that will get you there and could potentially trip you up when that self doubt starts creeping in. I need to visualize the goal I want to achieve every day and my success with it, surrounding myself with the feeling of achieving it (my peak state). That feeling will translate into my being certain of it happening, on a subconscious level, even, and I will believe in it. And a better result will happen organically. If you watch the video there is an exercise he has you do that will show this happen immediately...its pretty cool, so try it!

So I still need to train for my events, but instead of being down about my injuries, and worried that I CANT do it, I will train myself to know I can, to feel the feeling of finishing strong, of meeting a PR, etc, and I will have a great result.

I definitely needed that video. As you can tell from my lack of posting, I have been feeling down about not being able to walk or run, and that has spiraled into my sitting on my ass and doing nothing. Not a good place to be. I know what I need to do now...and I will work on it. And of course, keep you posted about how I am doing. Yippee!

Frustrated and Unmotivated in PA

Life seems to be getting in the way of my training. Last night I did not go to the gym despite my plan because I had a pretty intense session with the chiropractor-I was there over an hour!, and he said I have perineal tendonitis in my right foot.

I also stayed home because I was feeling lazy and I wanted to spend time with my boys. I helped Connor clean his playroom, read on the couch while everyone was watching tv and playing (just started the book that I am supposed to read for book club tomorrow night), and basically, just relaxed.

Today I brought my shoes and workout clothes to work, hoping that the thunderstorms that are called for today don’t occur til after my walk, but I am upset (make that pissed off!) …I found out that my boss didn’t tell me that I wasn’t going to go forward for a second interview for the manager job I interviewed two weeks ago (its at my current company). I found out through a friend who had her second interview already. Not that I mind that I’m not getting the position, but to not even be told is just plain rude!, and very upsetting. I’ve worked at this DAMN company for 8 years, you think they would show a little respect. And what’s funny is that I had to think long and hard about what makes a good manager due to the interview. Guess who didn’t make the list? It makes me not want to work here anymore…but then where would I go? Ill take my anger and frustration out on my jogging shoes at lunchtime. Maybe punch a few keyboard wrist gel pads if I really want to go crazy. UGH!