Certainty and Visualization

Just watched this amazing Tony Robbins video. He was interviewing Frank Kern and John Reese about how to reach goals and what holds most people back. And I started to link my injuries and lack of motivation and all this other bs that is holding me back from doing more events, to losing weight, and more, to FEAR. Fear that I did not acknowledge I am holding on to before this moment. Fear of what you ask?...well, the basics: Failure, injury, flat tires, cars hitting me, big hills, SUCCESS, my own magnifigence. Pretty powerful stuff.

But its ok to have the fear. Acknowledge it. Bask in it. Know that it makes us alive. And that it doe not need to hold you back. You can instead visualize the results you want and not the steps that will get you there and could potentially trip you up when that self doubt starts creeping in. I need to visualize the goal I want to achieve every day and my success with it, surrounding myself with the feeling of achieving it (my peak state). That feeling will translate into my being certain of it happening, on a subconscious level, even, and I will believe in it. And a better result will happen organically. If you watch the video there is an exercise he has you do that will show this happen immediately...its pretty cool, so try it!

So I still need to train for my events, but instead of being down about my injuries, and worried that I CANT do it, I will train myself to know I can, to feel the feeling of finishing strong, of meeting a PR, etc, and I will have a great result.

I definitely needed that video. As you can tell from my lack of posting, I have been feeling down about not being able to walk or run, and that has spiraled into my sitting on my ass and doing nothing. Not a good place to be. I know what I need to do now...and I will work on it. And of course, keep you posted about how I am doing. Yippee!

Hubby's back

He got in last night at 10:30pm. Safe and sound, though hung over (he calls it jet lag). I really missed him. So much so that I made him lunch this week and got all the kids morning stuff done(normally things he does every week), as well as getting out of bed this morning at 6am (Kieran woke up then) so Mark wouldn't have to. Yes, I am a good wife...at least sometimes.

Since we are in Day 3 of a heat wave, and I can't force myself to leave the comfort of air conditioning to work out, I am headed back to the gym today. I had to take two days off since I couldn't take Connor and Kieran to Kiddie Care yesterday or Sunday, and now I'm feeling unmotivated and slovenly...and my right foot is really bothering me. When I walk there are shooting pains on the outside part of it underneath my pinkie toe all the way to my ankle. Funny thing is that I fell two days ago on the other ankle and that's not hurting...what the hell is wrong with this big ole body of mine?

Hopefully my chiropractor can fix it this afternoon during my appt. If not, guess that means I will have more than 2 days off from working out. I wonder why I am so injury prone this season? I have been stretching and taking it easy...no crazy workouts. I wonder if its all in my mind...

Got my pic proofs from Steelman from Sports in Motion yesterday...lets just say that I look like a beached whale in my wetsuit. I have a completely different picture of myself and the way my body looks in my head than what I see in pictures...I am so shocked every time I see myself. I cringe, and feel awful, and instead of that motivating me to work harder on losing weight, I tend to comfort myself with food, and the endless cycle of poundage continues.

Sometimes I wish I was big enough to qualify for gastric bypass, and then I remember that I love food (its taste, texture, the feel of it in my mouth, the smell, yum!) and I don't want to be confined to taking all my food in with a straw for the rest of my life. And what kind of health and nutrition coach would I be not practicing what I preach and taking the easy way out. I know if I put my mind to this I can do it. But as Anthony Robbins says, I need to make this weight loss a MUST and not a should. So whats gonna get me to MUST?