Hubby's back

He got in last night at 10:30pm. Safe and sound, though hung over (he calls it jet lag). I really missed him. So much so that I made him lunch this week and got all the kids morning stuff done(normally things he does every week), as well as getting out of bed this morning at 6am (Kieran woke up then) so Mark wouldn't have to. Yes, I am a good wife...at least sometimes.

Since we are in Day 3 of a heat wave, and I can't force myself to leave the comfort of air conditioning to work out, I am headed back to the gym today. I had to take two days off since I couldn't take Connor and Kieran to Kiddie Care yesterday or Sunday, and now I'm feeling unmotivated and slovenly...and my right foot is really bothering me. When I walk there are shooting pains on the outside part of it underneath my pinkie toe all the way to my ankle. Funny thing is that I fell two days ago on the other ankle and that's not hurting...what the hell is wrong with this big ole body of mine?

Hopefully my chiropractor can fix it this afternoon during my appt. If not, guess that means I will have more than 2 days off from working out. I wonder why I am so injury prone this season? I have been stretching and taking it easy...no crazy workouts. I wonder if its all in my mind...

Got my pic proofs from Steelman from Sports in Motion yesterday...lets just say that I look like a beached whale in my wetsuit. I have a completely different picture of myself and the way my body looks in my head than what I see in pictures...I am so shocked every time I see myself. I cringe, and feel awful, and instead of that motivating me to work harder on losing weight, I tend to comfort myself with food, and the endless cycle of poundage continues.

Sometimes I wish I was big enough to qualify for gastric bypass, and then I remember that I love food (its taste, texture, the feel of it in my mouth, the smell, yum!) and I don't want to be confined to taking all my food in with a straw for the rest of my life. And what kind of health and nutrition coach would I be not practicing what I preach and taking the easy way out. I know if I put my mind to this I can do it. But as Anthony Robbins says, I need to make this weight loss a MUST and not a should. So whats gonna get me to MUST?