Gentle she goes

So far so good on my New Years Intentions...Ive been listening to my body, feeding myself well, taking breaks when I need them, and pushing myself when I need to.  Ive been fighting this terrific cold, so Im making sure to take my vitamins, limit sugar, and get lots of sleep, and Im feeling pretty good despite the illness, and TOMs arrival yesterday (one week early, though granted, he was 8 weeks late when he arrived last month).  Ive dropped two pounds since the beginning of the week, and Im hoping my workout schedule (body pump 3 times per week, yoga three times per week, running at least once per week, and swimming once per week) in addition to my better eating keeps the numbers dropping.  I do have 8 frozen syringes and a vial of 5000iu left from my last round (though no more syringes), so I MIGHT try another round this winter, but knowing what my headspace was after the last round, and my striving to be more vegetarian in my food consumption (again, gentle, so not going full steam ahead), I want to see if I can get my body to lose when Im not on HCG.  And find out what that looks like.     I want to be a healthy eater all the time, choosing good foods/fuel for my body without worrying about what the scale says (so then I sabotage myself and rebel), and most importantly, I want to stop DIETING and start LIVING ( I know I sound like a Jenny Craig commercial, but its true) !!!!!  I want to stop making excuses and stop lying to myself (ie I was born this way, Im big boned, I wont be able to lose the weight without HCG) .  I am capable of great things and as my body is the vessel that allows me to do those things, it deserves to be treated well.    I know to do that I need to be prepared and I need to be accountable.  I need to make sure I have heathly things in the house, and that I take the time to make them (no more withering away in the frig!!!!).  I need to have greens in the house at all times.  I need to have quick good food ready for those times when I have no time and Im itching to eat crap.  When my head is telling me to go eat, I need to distract myself and avoid food until my body tells me its time to eat.  I need to pay full attention when I eat and notice and enjoy every bite.  I need to drink at least one glass of water before my meal.  And I need to log my food and exercise so I can keep track of what worked for me (ie feeling powerful, strong, healthly and focused) and what Im too sensitive to or takes me out of balance or causes me to gain.  On the gentle side, I am allowing myself my worst vice, diet soda, so I dont feel overwhelmed (diet soda is bad for me since I have reactions to the aspartame in it), and I will give that up again soon....   Today I have eaten two slices of rye bread (panera) with 3 tbs sunflower butter, 1 piece whole wheat bread (small) with margarine, and a big bowl of brussels, collard greens, bok choy stir fried with garlic and onion.  Im still hungry, but Im going to give myself 15 minutes or so to see if thats my head saying I want to eat more or if Im actually hungry.  I also did an hour of weight training and plan to run later this afternoon.  So far so good...and the foods Im eating (lots of greens, good fats, some low glycemic carbs) are taking away my sugary cravings, so thats wonderful.   This weekend, four yoga classes are on the agenda, and date night with hubby (he doesnt know yet that I will be taking him to our Masters groups annual party after dinner at our favorite restaurant-should be a great time!).  Next weekend I have to teach my first hour long class, and Im freaked out big time!  But I will not allow the stress to overwhelm me or my fear to let me back out of it.   Got any big plans for the weekend?  How are you doing with your resolutions?