Rd1, VLCD Day 33

Lost .4 last night, so almost back down to the weight I was three days ago before the chili tasting...167.4 is the big number of the day, and I wouldn't be suprised if thats the number of centimeters of snow that we will be getting by days end.  Hubby was already out once with the snowblower and will definitely need to go out at least once more.  Our canopy on the deck collapsed under the weight of all the snow and almost crushed the dining table, but luckily we were able to move it in time.  I'm sad about the canopy though, it was a real nice one, and a replacement is going to cost us close to a $1000.  

At least there's a cute snow alien on the front lawn to make me laugh, courtesy of my oldest and darling hubby.  And my little guy is now tall and crafty enough to have figured out how to open my office door....let the destruction begin :).

Snow days are the best, aren't they?  Here's hoping for another one tomorrow...as well as much BIGGER smaller numbers on the scale.

VLCD Day 32

Down only .2 today...was hoping it would be more since I drank so much water yesterday, and ate only 450 calories...

I can't seem to get this consistant weight loss thing down pat, and its making me very nervous for P3.  I am afraid that I will not be able to stabilize in P3, and will end up 10 lbs heavier than I am now...instead of the 40 lbs lighter I want to be. 

This diet is definitely a commitment...one that is so easy when the weight is falling off, and so hard when its not.  Happy Tuesday, anyway...and enjoy the snow later!

VLCD day 31

Back up to 168 today after sampling hubby's chili ( just the meat, sauce, onions and garlic) yesterday for lunch yesterday. Though I didn't think it was a cheat, I guess I was wrong.

Hopefully tomorrow will be better- have a great night everyone!

VLCD Day 30

Happy Superbowl everybody!

Down .7 yesterday, which brought me past the 20lb mark, finally!, and down 1.1 today.  Current weight is 167.4lbs.  Yay!  Gotta get me 8.4 more lbs down before I stop giving myself injections and switch to SL...that's the hope anyway. 

Though the scale is showing this loss, I feel somewhat bloated, and my belly seems to be a little bigger than it was a few days ago.  Not sure what is causing that, or if it is all in my head? 

Went to dinner at Cafe Allesio in Doylestown for date night with the hubby last night, and had my piece of ribeye steak with romaine and it was delicious...as was the company.  We then went over to a new restaurant called 86 and sat and chatted with locals at the bar while Mark waited for his friends (since he decided to combine date night and MNO).  Looked at the menu and was impressed!...we made a reservation to go there next Saturday for our Valentine's dinner.  I can have my steak and lettuce, and Mark can make me jealous with all of the small plates they offer that sound delicious...maybe that will need to be my first cheat? 

Anyway, enjoy the game.  Ill be watching for all the commercials...I love those commercials...

Still .1 to go

So if you only lose .2 in 3 days, does that mean that you've stalled?  If so, thats where I am.  Still at 169.1.  I really want to keep losing, but my body is holding onto this weight for something...if its like this tomorrow, I might do an apple day. 

Hope you are having a successful day, while I wallow in my stability. :)

Week 4 Measurements

Imagine my surprise this afternoon when I tried on a pair of size 12 jeans that haven't seen daylight in years (since they were stuffed in the back of a 'my hope to be wearing again someday pants' drawer), and they fit!  They are tight, but not so tight they didn't slide right up and I had to lay on the bed to hope and pray they would button; more they are tight where I can feel the button on my belly, and it might leave a mark.  Either way, I'm thrilled!

And for all of you tracking, here are my measurements for this morning...4.5 more inches lost (click it to see it bigger):

A new photographer, please!

Me after losing 20 lbs (don't judge the photographer too harshly, its hard to suck everything in (not!) and hold a camera)-notice any difference from here?

VLCD Day 27

Down .2lbs after second round of weighing this morning.  TMI alert---do not proceed if you do not want to be mildly disgusted---can you believe that my poop this morning weighed 1.1 lbs, and it wasn't even that much! 

I was up .9 for the first weigh in (after my oldest said I bet you gained, Mommy-and darn it, he was right!), but after my time in the bathroom, down 1.1 for a total of 169.1 lbs this morning-only .1lb away from a 20lb loss. 

So yippee, right!, I lost 20 lbs, but I'm also a little disappointed, because I was hoping that it would be more by this time.  How silly am I? 

Its hard to go down so little on a day to day basis (or up, even) when I'm doing everything right with my eating, not exercising, no off protocol recipes or ingredients, drinking at least 100oz of water a day, and so on, especially for little ole miss perfectionist me...but I need to remember the bigger picture.  This is a journey, not a race, and I'm doing this for my life. 

I am learning a new way of living, one where I am not defined (by myself, of course) by my size, one that I am not obsessing about when the next time I can eat is, and how much I can stuff myself with food that doesn't nourish me.  I am learning how to cope with life without stuffing my feelings with food.  I am learning to function normally without all the chemicals that normally pollute my body running through my veins.  I am learning to practice what I preach, do what I know is right for my body, treat myself with respect.  I am loving myself on a basic, vital level. 

I am scared of what lies ahead, of the stresses and bumps in the road that will trip me up.  But I can do this.  I am committed.  I want to live life to the fullest and set a great example for my kids, my family, my friends, my clients.  I can do this.  So I need to be easier on myself.  I need to treat myself with the same kindness and understanding that I do everyone else.  I need to tell myself great things about myself...get myself a valentine, even :)...I do love you, Kelly.  You are wonderful, giving, gracious, and kind.  Just remember that.

But I might ask for a little support from you to remember that when I am hard on myself, ok?  And I'll do the same for you...

I am a wonderful work in progress.  And you are too.  Here's to loving ourselves for who and where we are, not for whom we hope to become.

Two great videos that explain how HCG works

From Trielle Hormone Balance Centers, some basic info about HCG:

Part 1  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B_j51qNVk8A&feature=related

Part 2  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=diFSL0y144w&feature=related

Where I got my HCG

A number of people have asked me where I got my HCG.  I ordered my HCG through All Day Chemist.  This link will take you to their 10000iu HUCOG bottle, which is good if you will be doing the 40 day or beyond sublingual protocol, and it has a rubber top, instead of a glass ampule, so no cutting yourself on the glass! 

I actaully ordered the 4 bottles of the 5000 IU since I am doing two rounds of the 40 day injections.  If you inject, you do so once a day.  Sublingual dosing is done twice a day, so you need to order double the amount.

It took approximately 3 weeks for me to receive, as it had to clear customs.  Please note that they charge $25 for shipping, so order as many bottles as you think you will need, and try to combine your order with friends to save even more.  All told 4 bottles were $66 and $25 for shipping, so it was $91.  Hope that helps!

I ordered my injection supplies (needles, baceteriostatic water, alcohol wipes, mixing bottle and syringes) from HCG Diet Supplies.  A 43 day supply was $48 including shipping.  The needles are typical insulin needles, so if you have access to them already, it would be cheaper to buy the supplies individually from local sources.

Finally losing again

So my hives are much better, starting to dry up and no longer itch, yahoo!  And I'm down 1.1 pounds this morning, after seeing the same number on the scale for what felt like so long.  I am in the 160's again!!!!!!!  I am 169.3!!!!  I sure hope I keep losing and that the weight loss stalemate has resolved itself.

Fun night out with some of the best women you'll ever meet last night.  Out til 11pm (on a school night!) and then woke up to the phone ringing at 4:45am to let me know that conman had a two hour delay.  Thank goodness Hubby agreed to take him to school so I could get some work done before heading to his school's open house and lunch with the parents (which I will not be eating, just watching).  Which is what I'm off to do now...hope you are having a great, snow filled (or sun filled, rain filled, whatever) day!

Oh, and I sent out the book questionnaires to those that indicated they were interested...On HCG and want to be part of a fabulous book?  Contact me and I'll send you the questionnaire.  Contributors get a copy of the book, and a part of the FAME :)....

No loss this morning

And sitting in an all day training trying not to scratch- ugh!

VLCD Day 24

Down .4 today after I really went to the bathroom (if you know what I mean), though when I first weighed myself it was a big ole ZERO loss.  I've been doing that for the last few days now and its really disheartening.

Skipped my HCG dose yesterday due to the hives, which are still here and still SO ITCHY!  Called the Dr to make an appt and will see what he/she says.

Big dilemma this morning is whether to mix for injection or for SL since I am making a new batch.  I do not want to have to do SL until closer to injection day 38-40, but I'm afraid if I inject with this rash, I'll just make it worse, and its already so bad (ugh!).  And if I mix for injection, I'm not sure if I can use that same mixture to take it SL, and if I can't, then I will be wasting a whole bottle of hcg.  What do I do?

Posted on the yahoo and facebook boards, but got no response...

Guess I'll be flipping a coin.

10:50am update: Just  mixed for injection and took my first one, and so far, no increased reaction...maybe I really am allergic to the antiobiotic...also, a little hungry so drinking hot water and eating my melba toast right now.  Fingers crossed that I keep losing and my rash doesn't get any worse.

VLCD day 23

Covered in hives all over my body and no idea why. Did my hcg batch go bad? I am SO itchy! Took 2 benedryl last night after a shower but it looks like it's getting worse this morning. Hubby wants me to go to ER ( because of course something like this always happens on a weekend) but why go when they'll just tell me I have hives and send me home with an antihistamine? I'm going to tough it out til my dr can see me tomorrow, granted it doesn't get any worse.

Somehow I am down .2 today ( and .4 yesterday) so current weight is 170.8. If it turns out that my body is reacting this way to the HCG now, and I find out that the rash is nothing serious and won't leave me scarred for life ( yes the rash is THAT bad), I might just keep going- that's how committed I am to losing this weight.

I'm so hoping it's not due to the HCG though. But what else could it be?

And do I mix for sublingual now, or make a new batch of the injection mix? I would like to keep injecting til my 40 days are up, but this rash is throwing me for a loop.

Help!

VLCD Day 21

Just had my first injection in two days, so I'm hoping that starts the loss process again.  TOM appears to be on its way out (at least by tomorrow), so hopefully I will lose a few lbs by Sunday.  Today I maintained at 171.4. 

Feel good, though, and just fit into my size 14 (wow, thats scary to say that--fit into size 14?  I never even used to acknowledge that I owned size 14, and now they fit snugly...) pants that haven't even come over my butt in the last few months.  Thats a good thing.  My rings are loose, my bra fits comfortably, and most of the lovely back rolls are gone-YAY!  So even though I'm not losing weight, it appears that my body is still re-distributing, and I'm enjoying the results.  I do agree that this diet helps you look like you had liposuction!

Anyway, off to a meeting.  Hope you guys have a GREAT day~